March 2001:
3/04/01
3/05/01
3/06/01
3/07/01
3/08/01
3/09/01
3/12/01
3/15/01
3/16/01
3/19/01
3/23/01
April 2001:
4/03/01
4/13/01
4/15/01
4/17/01
4/18/01
4/19/01
4/20/01
3/04/01 - I decided to take out my Game Section. It never really filled any real need, and even I never went there.
I replaced it will a new section deticated to my playing around with Visual Basic. So far I only have two programs up, but they don't do anything much.
I also watched a lot of "Ghost Hunting" type shows last night. It reminded me to work on the Halloween Section.
3/05/01 - My HTML Editor (+ Notepad) has been giving me errors while Cutting & Pasting in my Journal. It says that the file's gotten too big and memory's too scarce to handle it. I'm surprised that it got that big so fast. So I'm splitting it and archiving the older entries. The link's at the top of the page.
I made a "Crappy Calculator" last night. It has some bugs though, but I still posted it. I'll upgrade it and fix some of the bugs later.
I think I'm going to get rid of the 3DML Section tonight. I don't think that Geocities (Yahoo) will ever catch up with the world and upgrade their file extensions.
I'm also thinking of putting that JavaScript Password Function to work soon. I don't know where though... Maybe somewhere in the DarkHold Site so I can access things from the office without having to save them on the Board Computer.
UPS Hasn't called me yet... I'm giving them till Wendnesday until I send an Application up to the Meijers in Jeffersonville. I'll apply for Stock and such just like I did down here.
On the week of March 19th a man by the name of Max Howard is coming up to Jefferson County with a Magic Show focused on Nutrition and Health. He came up here last year and we both had fun... I carted him around to schools and helped him get setup. Plus it kept me out of any "real" work.
And just like last year I was elected to help him again. It'll give me some time to work on my programs during and in-between his shows.
3/06/01 - Tuesday morning and I feel like I'm still in bed... I truely don't want to work, but I'm in the office, I might as well make the most of it.
My boss is still out of town, and my main co-worker has taken a sick day. It's just me and Jo. So far it's been pretty slow.
I finished My Crappy Calculator V2.0 last night. This morning I made a couple of cosmetic changes and uped it to V2.1. It's in the VB6 Section now. It can only calculate 2 different variables, but it's not bad for a beginner that only had a basic knowledge to work from. I had to figure out how to make the # buttons work right all by myself, and most of the program I did here in the office without my book to even glance at.
*Reminder to self: Check online for the latest version of Hamapatch.
*Rule of Thumb: Having a co-worker out is a good thing... It gives you the ability to use the excuse: "We're short-handed today." Then you can work slower than normal. (For me that's almost a complete stop.)
3/07/01 - "Cut-and-Paste"... Ahhh, a man's best freind. Without it this Journal would be a bear to maintain.
Didn't get to play around much with VB6 last night. I rented "Road to Eldor-sump'n-or-other". Some cute Disney cartoon. I like it, but Charlotte had her head turned half of the time so I guess she didn't.
I did however play around with Hamapatch for a while. I created a cool model of the Talaxion Corvette. It's all one frame so it's easy to manipulate, and I plan to use it for "Stock Footage" and "Demonstrations" on it's Section. That means that the next section to work on will prob be it.
So I need to review my Webpage's update itinerary:
1 - "Halloween Section"
2 - Update Talaxion Corvette Section whenever I've gotten around to new picts/movies
3 - And, of course, the constant updating of my Journal, Picts, and VB Programs
3/08/01 - UPS called last night, I wonder if they knew about my secret deadline? I'm going on a 2 hour tour of the Air Cargo Area 12:30 Tuesday morning. It'll be fun and I'll be out on the Ramp a lot.
I also created an Animated GIF of the Talaxion Corvette making a sharp turn to Starboard and then jumping to warp last night. It's not as smooth as I'd like, but I made it in a hurry.
I hope I can deal with this UPS job. I can't wait to pay off these bills and move out!
3/09/01 - School's out and there's nothing but meetings today, so I should be in a good mood, but I'm not.
My co-worker has been trying to get rid of a Piano of hers for years (for free). So I decided to get it for Charlotte. I called around and it would cost around $200 dollars to move. And go figure, the day after I tell Charlotte about it my co-worker's husband decides he wants to keep it. Charlotte'll be crushed. Bonni says she'll talk to her husband again. He's making her look bad, since she already promised it away.
I've started on the new additions to the Talaxion Corvette Section. Not much, It's slow going. It'll slow down even more when my second job starts up. So far I just have a new GIF of "Conesha", the Planet on the "History" page. I created it using Hamapatch and a GIF Animator.
I haven't done much with VB6 at all this week. Last night was mainly TV and Guitar pactice, tonight and tomorrow is booked also. Then I'll have to start training my body for the upcoming change in my sleeping schedule after that. It'll be hard to get any "Goof-off Time" into my life for a while.
3/12/01 - Bonni never called me over the weekend and she called in sick today. No matter, I doubt I can trust her again anyway. I don't think she has any clue on how much we were looking forward to that piano. She promised it and then changed her mind. Nothing new there... I should have known better.
Tonight (Early Tuesday Morning), is my tour of the Air Cargo Section @ UPS. I plan on sleeping this afternoon. I can't wait it'll be sooooo much fun! I just hope my body can adjust to the schedule change.
Other than that.. I added to the Talaxion Corvette Section over the weekend. I just haven't updated it yet.
3/15/01 - It's been hard to find time to write this Journal. I got the job at UPS so I find myself sleeping whenever I'm home. My new schedule's 1-5AM Tuesday night to Saturday night. So I'll be more awake here at the office on Mondays and Tuesdays. Although it really hasn't been that bad so far, my body's adjusted fairly quickly, I fall asleep almost as soon as I get home and feed the dog. I feels weird falling asleep with the sun still out, but I guess my body dosn't care.
I've been goofing around some more with the Talaxion section whenever I get bored here at work. Not much though, just a picture or two. I'll FTP them up when I send this Journal entry.
I also have to make up an invoice for the KSFSA site today. Just $50 for the two past updates, and Mary thinks I should charge extra for the new Apple setup. I really don't know. I didn't ask them about that, I just thought that the old one looked REALLY ugly.
My other project for the KSFSA Site is to make a Banner and a Logo for the tops of the pages. Figure that... I offered to do it for Mary and she actually agreed... I (The web page designer of all people) get to design the Logo for a State Association. And while half asleep at that. :-)
I know I'm going to use a variation of the 3D Apples that we've been using (for consistancy). I also get the pleasure of putting dates on all of the pages for updating purposes, and to copyright each page's information as property of KSFSA's.
3/16/01 - Talk 'bout weird. I remember the majority of my dreams last night and they seemed to focus on UPS and Sexual Affairs. Lets just say that they involved a couple of girls I've been training with at the new job and another dream involving a very cute girl named Melissa from here in the office. After the Melissa one my alarm woke me up and I tried and tried to get back to sleep.
I tried to persuade Charlotte to come over yesteray afternoon 'cause I haven't seen her for nearly a week. But she claimed that "Play Practice" was a priority, so I slept instead. I guess tonight will be the same... I'll wait through weekend for her to call me. I wouldn't want to intrude.
This UPS job will last a while, so I guess it'll help Charlotte and I figure out if our bond is strong enough. If not, I'll be good to find out sooner than later.
Mary's out of town today and I have a couple of schools on my schedule. My co-worker, Bonni, was in a bitchy mood yesterday but appears to have chilled out today. This morning Jo, my "cubicle neighbor", and I determined that her "The world revolves around me, and I don't feel like working" attitude is hurting how others see her at work. Don't get me wrong... She works, but you can tell she hates it when anybody but Mary reminds her of her responsibilities. That subject plus the "Piano incident" hasn't put her in the best of graces with me. I don't trust her and I try to keep her at arm's length.
I created a small Logo for KSFSA yesterday, but because the Board Email Network is a cheap piece of sh*t I couldn't send it home. So I just left it here. Maybe I'll work on it later today.
3/19/01 - I'm sitting here at Bowen... All the kids are coming in and Max is sitting up his show. We're running a couple of minutes late, but Max dosn't seem to care. In fact, he looks pretty calm and content working at a faster pace.
I've been off from UPS since Friday night and I don't have to return til Tuesday night. I've enjoyed the sleep.
The show's starting and this seems like a good crowd, so I'll continue this entry a little bit later.
The show's over and Max is pack'in up. We both believe that it went pretty good. I just hope that the rest of the week is the same.
I missed out on Jess's birthday party Saturday. I hope it went ok. I was sleeping on-and-off anyway. It's a bear to keep this schedule. Tonight I'm retiring early and getting up even earlier. I need to be ready for work that night.
I still can't wait to move out.
3/23/01 - I haven't been able to write much because I've been driving Max Howard around every day this week, but UPS is going good. I recieved my 1st pay check last night (In which they kindly extracted union dues from). My schedule's going to "start to level out" tonight, so my body'll be able to adjust to a permanent time frame to sleep.
Lately I've been thinking of adding a new section that I can update every month. A section in which I would buy a game and review it. I came across this idea when I bought next month's copy of "PC GAMER" and it came with a demo CD for "No One Lives Forever". The demo was really cool and I started thinking about reviewing it.
Who knows... Maybe if I ever get time.
4/03/01 - Haven't had much time for updating this page... Sorry.
Things @ UPS are doing pretty good. I haven't let it interfer with my day job (Thank god... Pat gives me more reasons to get away from her everyday), although that means being out'a reach of everybody Tuesday thru Friday.
Last week I caught a rumor that someone I used to love deeply might be moving to Florida (Someone I hadn't said a kind word to in over a year). Thanks to the loose lips of an aquaintance she ended up writing me asking how I knew.
I tried by best to keep my source a secret. But the damage was done. Monday we went out to lunch to catch up (The invite surprised the crap out of her). I then I invited her to go out that night to help me look for work gloves. We ended up visiting her Grandmother in a nursing home and renting Blair Witch 2. I didn't get home til around 12:30.
And getting used to UPS's schedule must be helping, 'cause I really don't feel that tired today.
And what scares me is that I had a lot of fun last night.
During lunch I went to the park and thought for a while. I decided to shift the majority of my concentration on moving out. It's the only "good" decision I can possibly make right now so I need to focus on that. This weekend Charlotte and I are leaving town for our vacation/anniversary. I'm hoping that will strengthen my bond to her again. Although I feel like such a jerk for even saying that.
I've spent one day with this girl and it's brought this many feelings back... Is that a sign, or am I just a weak man?
4/13/01 - I haven't got much time before the end of work so I'll make this entry quick.
I quit UPS, it was interfering with my day job. Despite the fact that my day job sucks.
The bond between Charlotte and I is strengthening itself again. (Although it got worse before it got better). On that note, our anniversary was very fun.
I'm going to try adding to this site and doing another "face-lift" this weekend. Now that I have the time.
4/15/01 - I've given the site a minor face-lift this weekend. I'll upload it tommorrow at work. I also added the "Halloween Special" section. I only had one good picture but I found some other stuff to add just for fun.
That's pretty much it for now.
4/17/01 - Why is common sense so lacking in today's society? And why do half of those ignorant people have to be working near, or with, myself.
*Note to self: Try not to give out web page address to coworkers. That or give my journal restricted access.
Went out with Charlotte last night and got my copy of "Red Planet" (I saw it in theators with Jessica). Tonight we're gonna watch it and then Buffy TVS/Angel (New episodes). I also got a small paperback called "Ghost Ships, True Stories of Nautical Nightmares, Hauntings, and Disasters"... It's really good. I layed awake last night reading the first four chapters and it was hard to put down afterwards.
4/18/01 - Not much happen'in today. My boss is out all day and I took the opportunity to do some serious work out on some sites.
I was planning to do some ghost hunting tonight, but those plans might fall through. Susan's grandmother fell ill the other day and her basement flooded last night so I doubt she'll come along. And it really isn't that much fun by myself.
I'm thinking I'll run my car through the car wash, walk around PEP Boys for a while, then watch TV over at Phillips before coming home to watch Star Trek (New Episode). Unless Susie ask's for help, then I'll prob help her out.
While sitting around on my lunch break I created a small program in Visual Basic. It's just a small "Password Window" to add to the beginning of any program that someone mght be creating. It includes 2 forms with code and if the password ("password", you have to change it in the code) is typed in correctly then it goes ahead and loads Form1. Like I said, the only bad part is that you have'ta change the password in the code itself, it's in two places it the EnterPassword Form.
4/19/01 - Today appears to have slowed down... It's getting downright boring.
I took the van (Board Van) to the VET earlier and to one school. I'll try to get out again soon.
Susan and I never got together yesterday, but I didn't mind, she was preoccupied anyway. Tonight I'm going to hang out with Jessica, maybe catch a movie or sump'n, then I'll work on the KSFSA site before falling asleep.
I've been trying to find "Fun things" to pass the time here in the office during Bonni's lunch but I've failed miserably. So I'm just sitting here typing this entry and wishing I was in Florida...
4/20/01 - Had the weirdest fuck'n night last night.. I took Jessica out to dinner and then we walked around McNeely Liake for a while (her idea, she said she wanted to get excercise). And I thought we were having a pretty cool night until she suddenly blurted out that she didn't want to be friends anymore. It totally broad-sided me. She wouldn't even let me drive her home (claimed she didn't want to talk to me anymore). when I got home Pat said she had called and asked for me not to hate her. I've never been so damn confused in my life... There's got to more going on than I can see but I wish someone would tell me or at least point me in the right direction. I've just decided to let it go.
I've taken the liberty of removing anything that can be linked back to Jessica from this site. She didn't ask me to, but I don't want to run the chance of dealing with it later. And as unstable as she's appearing to be at this point I want to distance myself from her as much as I can.
Today's my birthday (despite last night I'm attempting to enjoy it).
* Note = Jessica just tried to call (Here in the office 10:00 AM). I told her I was busy and hung up on her. I feel bad about it, but coming from last night I doubt the conversation would've been pleasant. She hurt me pretty bad, and if she cared in the least bit about how I felt she wouldn't have tried to call on my birthday because now I'll be upset and pondering the short conversation all god-damn day.
My plans for this afternoon are to go out with Mom to dinner and then hang out with Charlotte for the rest of the night. I just know I'll have to try my hardest to fake a smile and not take things out on them.
It's not like we were the best of friends, I only saw her once a month and we didn't even talk much more than that. We dated for four years and I knew that her and Phillip know more about me than anybody else on this planet (or at least they used to).
I guess having a long time (six year) friend who complains about her sex life (with someone she claims she's not even dating or involved with), and has friends who never call her and have ditched her many times in the past, to suddenly tell me that she dosn't want to be friends with me really makes me feel like the scum of the Earth. In my mind that puts me underneath all of these other people who treat her like shit.
This is going to be my worst birthday yet and I have her to thank for it.
Thank you Jessica Leigh Ender.
I think I'll start a new Journal page after this entry so that I don't have to see this one again.
I added my little "Password Front End" to The VB6 section. Other than that I'm trying to think of anymore updates to help pass the time here in the office.
I also completed the KSFSA updates. I have one extra page floating around in limbo (I don't know where to attach it, I'll ask Mary about it when she gets back). So that's pretty much outta the way for now.
I want to give credit to some of the ladies in the office today who gave me birthday cards and candy/presents today. Thanks ladies for remembering.